I have to say, I have always been sort of an ass, people seemed to always look up to me and seemed to expect me to lead and make all the decisions etc. I think I started taking a lot of the people in my life for granted. Relationships came easy, and went easy. I felt like no one I knew was as smart as me.

Now, I find I am not getting much attention from anyone anymore, guess I am getting what I deserved. No one is calling, people are avoiding me. I guess, I don't care, maybe it just means it is time from me to move on, move somewhere else and start another life, I am not sure.

I don't want any sympathy, I know what I have to do, just have to not be obnoxious and self-centered anymore.  I just felt like I needed to come clean, that is all.